I hope my absence haunts you like a ghost
Eating away at you from time to time
I know I’m absent from your life and mind but you still haunt mine
There’s a different kind of emptiness you left me with after all of this
And I can’t wrap my head around the fact that you’re not coming back
There’s a chemical imbalance that you left inside my brain
You’re the reason why the alcohol is still rotting in my veins
I’ll be ok this is something I can get through
But I don’t know if I can say the same about you
I know a world of stability is all that you could ever see and when everything
falls apart
Dear God I know it’ll fall apart
I hope you buckle at your knees and think of me
I’ll leave you with this emptiness as your parting gift
These heavy words I know you can’t lift
(Between the two of you there’ll be a common rift)
And thats me. The problem you can’t fix
The chemicals have balanced as I’m writing off your name
I hope the thought of us and broken trust stays frozen in his brain
'll be ok this is something I can get through
But I don’t know if I can say the same about you
Truth be told we are not the same
A future sold that was built on blame
I pray you can’t bear the guilt and shame
I’ll stay a thorn in your side that’s worn with pain
Day in day out it won’t get better
Even your friends say forever fair-weather
Stay stuck. You’re a stormy sky with an idle mind you deserve each other
And I’ve been picking you apart in my head
Trying to see between you and me if there was anything worth keeping
I’m empty handed once again
Constant consent. You lied to him about the time we spent.
Relapse. Repent. Your judgement lapse came and went.
You said that life was built on compromise
A statement laced with fraying ties on borrowed time you’ll never find
So in the end you took what was yours and stole what was mine.