Pills to the left, got sweaty grip on the right
My pain, confusion, triggers another round with the wife
Will I continue to beat this man? Destined. I'll beat that ass tonight
I need to make some grand decisions, or give up on this life
My life perspective is wolfin' sheep skinnas
Survival of the fittest, fuck the music biz
Father, brother, friend, lover, ain’t you none of em Don’t you even try to out rap, you only got one album
We close to pushin 30, what the fuck you think is the outcome
There ain’t no money in Horrorcore and psychopathic ain’t knocking
If they did open door to get paid is that a proper
Ain’t too generous, ain’t nothing more to adore and fat wallets
You ain’t that good and you ain’t the mothafucka, that’s just being honest
Takes two more hits and a gift close your eyes and I promise
Say some goodbyes in your mind and try to picture the strongest
Memory of your best time
(Daddy I love you)
Have you ever felt like this?
When you swing and always miss
Constantly we all are pissed
You hate me, you hate me And I will never mend
All these demons in my head
All the water that we trenched
I am so far gone that my mind can’t even function and this path
That I’m on could only lead to destruction
I’m searching everyday, looking for a way out
People tell me I’m ok, but they don’t know what I’m about
Cause I haven’t slept in days, and my eyes are gettin redder
Take another hit, and shit will start to get better
But I got no job, and don’t contribute to society
And the only thing that scares me are these thoughts of sobriety
I’m hidin' in my room, I haven’t seen the sun for days
I can’t get my shit together, is this more than just a phase?
Now I’m hearing sirens and I’m feelin paranoid
So I grab the pipe again, just so I could fill the void
When the smoke clears, I can feel the pain inside
My paranoid thoughts are now thoughts of suicide
Got the pipe in one hand, loaded gun in the other
Do I take another hit, or bring tears to my mother?
Have you ever felt like this?
When you swing and always miss
Constantly we all are pissed
You hate me, you hate me And I will never mend
All these demons in my head
All the water that we trenched
Darkness surrounds me, my vision is so cloudy
I’m rockin back and forth in the corner with a shotty
Contemplating suicide, I pump it back, and let it ride
Four slugs inside my brain
My life, I just cannot maintain
You couldn’t understand the pain that I’ve been through
Walk a mile in my shoes, I bet you’d miss bein' you
So fuck you, forget about me
I’m dead and gone now, right in your dreams
Pray for me momma, because I feel I’m going nuts
Wondering if she would ever love me for the touch
It’s like they can feel me until they see what the fuck is up
I’m wondering if she ever cared
Tell me you’ll always be right here
But I can’t get away from the fact that I stress so much up in this life
And I can’t run away from the fact that day will shed some light
It’s like in my dark days, the demons stay and watch my flesh decay
I’m just waiting for the day they’re taking my soul away