Enertia - Child Now Lost lyrics

was too young to understand but i never felt so invaded
dreadful dreams remind me my horrors never faded
within your power defenseless, i watch my life being destroyed
in your hands i'm just a child, with no future to fill the void
abused for selfish pleasure twisted shambles of my mind
too ashamed to counter attack, killing you would be too kind
try and keep you in my past, but my memory remains intact
i've been scarred for eternity because of your heinous act
child now lost, but the child now cries
now an adult, but the child now tries
to deal with the pain without paying the cost
never-ending search for the child now lost
kept your secret to this day, hiding all these years
holding on now i must pay as i count my fucking tears
suffering for all your sins but time never helps to heal
am i the only one who cares
or have you found other souls to steal
child now lost but the child still cries
now an adult, but the child now tries
to deal with the pain without paying the cost
never-ending search for the child now lost
terror knows no boundaries and conscience knows no shame
i won't forget your face, but i can't recall your name
no time for foolish sympathy, it is all to late
wrecked my life with sick desires, damn this world of hate
child now lost but the child still cries
now an adult, but the child now tries
to deal with the pain without paying the cost
never-ending search for the child now lost