If Hope Dies - By The Time You Read This lyrics

I'm leaving right now, not for another moment
Can I stand to bear the weight of your eyes upon me
There's a weight that pressing on my shoulders
Each step away takes so much effort
But when you turn around next I still won't be there
I've managed to kid myself about who I am
For such a long time
And about how you may have felt
It's still hard to put into words
Just how much you mean to me

Those wonderful nights just seem so far away now
I can look into the sky
And almost see them, out there between the stars
Of course I know you don't even see that much at all
So when you look back I'll be gone,
and you won't have missed a thing

Maybe this is better
Because I'd rather you not see this
How I'd scream at these walls
Until I can't speak your name again

I've managed to kid myself about who I am
For such a long time
And about how you may have felt
It's still hard to put into words
Just how much you mean to me

I'll be gone when you turn around
You'll only see the same empty space
The space that we both shared
This those memories that you've forgotten
And I'll be running; I'll keep on running
Because I'm leaving for good
I won't be looking back, no I won't

Running forward into the night
I'll let it swallow me whole
Maybe you'll hear me in the wind
But then it will be too late
To say goodbye

Goodbye