daddy why did u do that to mommy?
you said if we hit somebody we’re suppose to say sorry
but you never say sorry daddy you yell now
why did you tell that man that mommy just fell down
mommy didnt fall down daddy’s lying
mommy why are you always sad and always crying?
daddy why are you always mad you always fighting?
why do you always say im bad even when im trying?
no i dont want to go to my room
i dont want to go to bed now i want to be with you
i dont want to daddy it’s to early
i didnt mean it daddy im sorry im sorry
i promise i’ll never say that again
im sorry daddy please dont hit me again
please i’ll be a good boy now
dont put me in the room please dont turn the lights out
(what did i do?
im sorry daddy that’s all i want to say to you)
where? where were you? just when i needed you
daddy where were you
where? where were you? just when i needed you
mommy where were you
(golden child)
what up pops i aint got to tell you my heart is as hard as a rock
things have changed since i was the age six
yet some situations stay the same
like the way i conceal my pain
growing up i’d swear my name was every profane thing a man could say
i used to make excuses like you weren’t the one that hit her
it was just the liquor in ya my dad the perfect example of hatred and why am i so bitter?
ya told me real men dont cry that was a lie
you dont realize what goes on inside of my mind
as time passed my heart ran cold my emotions froze
lost track of the bruises and the broken bones
just once wanted to hear that you loved me wrap your arms around me and hug me yeah right
remember the first time i couldnt feel the pain
it was when grandma came and took me to church
where God relieved the hurt and he knows it took work
but i forgave you he could save you but the question is will you let him in it would be such a blessing
to see you as a changed man and holdin my mother’s hand