the future's all talk,
further still i think the future's all thoughts.
i have the memory to see our paths cross,
now see me get lost.
and keep in mind
we're floating through
an ocean of frequency
so when i say "i'm seeing someone new"
i mean i'm finally seeing me
in the mirror by the back door
where we used to sneak out in the summer.
but it won't be there for much longer
so i'm leaving
our goodbyes
on the new haven line.
i know somewhere,
forever,
we're meeting
for the first time, yup.
i realize
i don't do these things to feel alive.
i do them to forget
in the softest sense.
kill myself,
a spell is just a spell
but these spirals give me hell,
these spirals.
i'm just like you
except you're 25 today
and tomorrow i'll still be troubled,
caught in an infinite struggle
if i don't change, but i can.
like the lines in the letters
of the words in each sentence
we're making the meaning
we're building connections
and the things i write down
help me remember now
there's no waiting involved
because there's no holding on.