Album: A Thousand Cuts
I'm parked in front of this clinic
Been waiting for forty minutes
And it's the girl that I'm with in it
Recently been admitted
I play it cool, but I'm sick to my stomach
Knowing we did it
Sometimes I just wish she had it
So I'd never admit it
I get a text from my dude
Tellin' me come and kick it
I'm passin' time as I rhyme
From the drivin' side of my Civic
Or maybe it was a Centra, honestly don't remember
What I do is the guilt, religion say I'm a sinner
So how do I keep revealin'
Agony that I'm feelin'?
Tryna keep my composure,
She's walkin' outta the buildin'
Told her I was a chauffeur,
Anyway, I be willin'
To take her along
At six thirty I got some dealin'
And I know she think's I'm weak
And she suckin' on her teeth
Like how could you leave me now
When you promised to stay and sleep?
And I feel like I'm a thief
Cause I'm overwhelmed with this grief
I stolen her innocence
And I sold her back to her chief
And I feel disgust too
That it can't be us too
It's happilly ever after,
That chapter is just through
And I'm chillin' with my partners
We lookin' for what's new
That's when I finally realized
That men can be slidged too
And it's no way to devert it
I know my soul is perverted
I pollinated this flower
And ripped it outta the surface
Over watered the roots and the truth
Is I need some purpose
Lord knows I'm not perfect, fuck
So where do we go?
Don't wait for me now!
Don't wait for me now!
So where do we go now?
Don't wait for me now!
Don't wait for me now!
I know she's worth it
But I ain't perfect
So don't wait for me now cause
I'll never be perfect
And I been a liar, I been a cheater
I'd rather sleep with a stranger
Than be a man and leave her
I'd rather sleep with the shame
Than try to not appease her
It's a plus, I know she's easily please
So I try to mislead her
But we exercising our daemons
And it's like our break-ups and make-ups
Become unseemless
Say I love her this time, but do I mean it?
And it's like we only together outta convenience
And I remember, my mother was always teachin' me
Said every time I fuck a girl, I loose another piece of me
Especially in this industry, women can meet you frequently
You gon' have to prove that you better than what you seem to be
But I said I listen
But I feel that something's missin'
And I thought that my admission to guilt
Was my petition
Even though e say it's wrong, we feel this as my decision
How do we raise a child in these fucked up conditions?
And we can barely eat and sleep still
I try to comfort her, tell her we need to keep still
She said 'a part of you is growin' inside of me'
Now that part is dead, so how you think that makes me feel?
I guess I feel responsible
I guess this is more than just an obstacle
But if you still can't forgive me, then it's worthless
You know I'm not perfect
So where do we go?
Don't wait for me now!
Don't wait for me now!
So where do we go now?
Don't wait for me now!
Don't wait for me now!
I know she's worth it
But I ain't perfect
So don't wait for me now cause
I'll never be perfect