Album: The Story of My Life
(Verse 1)
It's a new day, it's a new page
It's a new paper mate and it's a new me
But it's the same pain aggravation on my brain
I cannot escape it or tame it I'm not the same man
They saying I changed since a tiny taste of the fame
But the truth is I'm lost losing my cool and sane - shit
I mean my sanity sorry don't get me wrong I'm happy that ya'll are having me
But I ain't gon' be happy till I'm happily married with cash stacks for my family
I see me staring a cold stare in the mirror
Cause' the fact that my chances is slim and none got me scared
Scared to pursue my wishes and ambitions
Which is more of a mission a inquisition so listen
I'm inking a petition I'm giving all I can give
And if I fall into submission then I'm finished - I quit
I'm a little bitter - shit - I'm a little bit of everything
He has everything I want and everything I need so I guess he is king
But I'm deserving I know this I'm comatose holding my own with lonliness
hovering on my shoulder and God knows I can hold it
till the day comes I ain't gon' stay young
I need to make it so I pray some
(Chorus)
Look to the sky with my hands closed
I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone
Look to the sky for the answers
They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)
Look to the sky with my eyes closed
Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow
Look to the sky with a question
Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)
(Verse 2)
It's another day, it's another page
It's another paper mate and it's another face
With no emotion I'm holing back on my hoping
And closing the open door cause' my hearts close to exploding
Exposing my whole life and reaching only a handful
Taking you through my pain the journey comes to a stand still
I lash out snap back snapping another pencil
I probably would snap more if I lost you to that cancer
But I - keep my head up, even seeing me fed up
Ain't enough to get me down in the dirt I get my bread up
I said a lot of things I said I didn't mean
Wish I could take them back take a slap I was sixteen
A sick teen with sick dreams singing about sick things
It seems every time I sin it comes back to sin me
But I changed my ways in shades of gray
The days go by so slow but I still pray
(Chorus)
Look to the sky with my hands closed
I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone
Look to the sky for the answers
They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)
Look to the sky with my eyes closed
Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow
Look to the sky with a question
Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)
(Verse 3)
There ain't no more days, ain't got no more pages
I lost my last paper mate and I lost my own face
I lost my whole faith to my own blade
I'm contemplating on taking my own grave today
I been considering slitting my wrists and giving up
But every time I pick the cut someone's picking me up
And putting me up on their shoulders to take me home
And picking a shovel up filling the hole I dug alone
And whoa I lived my life all wrong I spit my life through this song
To have nothing happen from rapping for so long
But I - digress I'll die of a sudden death
This stress pressing my chest depression settles my head
And guessing is not my fashion smith and Wesson's what I'm grasping
When minimum wage passion's not the checks I'm trying to cash in
But I stay grounded like a rose on a grave
I can lose all the faith in the world but I still pray.
(Chorus)
Look to the sky with my hands closed
I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone
Look to the sky for the answers
They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)
Look to the sky with my eyes closed
Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow
Look to the sky with a question
Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)