im sitting here
all i can think about is you
and all that you mean
and you, youll never know
im begging you
but it doesnt matter
all you do is test my heart and what its cappable of
and all i find confort in is this bacardi
its exposing me to feelings of regret
and i wish things could just turn out my way
but instead ill take my chances
and things will turn out for the worst
im tired of trying to impress you
im throwing up tonight
i wish i could throw up those words ive said to you
becuaes you dont care and i just try to hide my emotions
but i can only do so for so long
im growing tired of this
when you cry, you make me want to cry
and when you laugh i crack a smile
my feelings have grown to be relfection of yours
and you dont even know
you dont even appreciate me
and thats why ill be crying tonight
ill miss your lips and your arms around mine
sometimes i feel like i need you
and i just wish i didnt
your brown eyes scream out for me
but your heart says no
and my chest is left a hollowed out disaster
my heart has had another piece chopped off
my throat is feeling jaded
your hair is so wonderful
your flowing hair can only bring me misery
all you can say to me is 'ben we can only be friends'
a part of me dies when you say this
it feels like like a thousand needles in my heart
i wish i could lay in your arms again
but that wouldnt make it easier
it would only make things more complicated
and you wont understand
youll never understand
and thats the part that makes me sad
you still miss him, so you cry
and so i immitate you and want to cry also
i want to cry not becase you lost him, buy becuse you cry for him
and it feels like ive never felt like this before
i cant change your mind
i think as i lay tonight i will think about you a little bit longer
and think about how you wont care
but ill lay in the thoughts of bliss
and think about how i gracefully have failed
but hey thanks, thanks for that time
so long
so long for that wonderful time
its nothing more than a memory
and now your gracefully falling
gracefully falling away from me
and im tired of these thoughts
becuase they are all wasted thoughts
every wasted breath while thinking of you is just that, wasted
you wont let me win
you wont let me have such a great time
tell me that your just feeling tired
and thats why you are lacking similar emotions
its all too dificult to read your eyes
maybe tomorrow things will be better
tomorrow will be new
and then ill see your smile again
and ill be stuck here again
and its just like you to ignore me
your brown hair is just too beautiful
i cant stop staring at your now
and im trapped in your eyes
let me throw up these words ive said to you
becuase you dont deserve them
you dont appreciate them
let me think about this a bit more
becuase you wont
ill continue to suffocate in these dreams
and i cant stop, i just cant stop thinking of you
id give you whatever you need
id do anything
let me walk over this bed of needles to hand you this water
becuase im so wrapped into you
and you dont care
i feel like im so far away
but im not that far
this alcohol only reveals my true feelings
and they wont stop
this waterfall of feelings wont stop
all you do is litsten to me and hold back your opinions
i hope that im not wrong
i hope that someday you wont hold back these feelings for me
i hope that youll stop thinking about him becase he didnt deserve you
not saying that i do, but i deserve the chance
you know it
my feelings are like an ice cream cone, they are solid for now, but soon they will melt away
when they do you will be sad
becuase by then you will have realized that its too late
i wish i could make you feel this pain
this drunken pain i feel tonight
im missing you so much, and its been not so long since ive seen you
im regurgetating those thoughts from the last time we were together
and i wish i could repeat them
but you make my eyes water
you make my heart hurt
you make my head storm of too many things
things that i cant control
and now i wish that i was anywhere
with anyone
making out and getting over you
but i cant
i just cant forget
and its taking its wear on my heart
my heart is growing weak
and only you can repear it
but you dont know that
so tonight ill stay up a little longer
ill think about you a little longer