i know you don't want to talk
but i can't live like this anymore
knowing i have this demon i can't control
and wishing you could understand
that i drink too much
i needed an escape
that i've had enough
i want to refrain
that people told me lies
i shouldnt have gotten involved
but i did
and i said things i didnt mean
that i lied and said
i didnt want you
only because if people thought
it was mutual
i wouldnt seem so weak
and wishing you could understand
that i lied
and wishing you would
would listen
to my cry
ive realised that drinking
causes so much pain
i cant control myself
and i lash out at innocent men
and ill never touch a drop again
if you'd just try to understand
that it wasnt me...
it wasnt me who did those things