Shown up, beat down, fallen through ground
Looking up, out beyond my reach
I'm not good enough â I don't wanna be
Excuses they blanket my mind
They'll be the death of me before I die
As long as I think I'll try
I'll be alright
BLIND â to where I've been
I see only what is theirs
BLIND â to where I am
Why must I compare
I'm speaking not saying â anything
Of substance - not used to describe
My meaning
Distrusting, I learn to believe
I'm not good enough â I want to be
As long as I pretend to try
I'll be alright
BLIND â to what I've done
To who has paved the way
BLIND â to what they see
And how will I repay
Bridge:
Open up my eyes to see the way I have to be
So fuck this shit that drags me down
I've paid the price to crawl this far only to
Slam into the wall of my own twisted mind
I've got to do it anyway