I still remember growing up in my neighborhood, when all the neighbors where still good in my neighborhood.
i was a little vato tryna get a grip on life, where little youngsters my age & packing pocket knifes.
walking the streets after dark in a war zone, a brokenhearted little soldier feeling all alone.
tear drops & closed caskets is all i know.
in the village of the damned, is where we call home.
too many homies turned phonies, now they dont know me.
they say they love me & i wonder why they dont show me.
somebody help me cuz im lost and im all alone,
dont understand why my daddy left me on my own.
the rock bottom's where the real killers come from. .
thts where im from, thts where i picked up my first gun.
a lost soul with no hope & no place to go,
looks like to me the whole world's out there smoking dope.
my life story is a book called survival.
im steady praying got my hands up on the bible.
a lost soul,
where will i go when my time comes.
i feel it coming,
now you running if my times up.
too many tears over the years,
too many dead peers.
but ima soldier,
in my veins there pumps no fear.
only in the valley of the shadow of death,
they'll snatch your wind from your chest,
in peace may you rest.
i still remember when i lost my best homeboy, still cant forget how they shot my best homeboy.
so much confusion in my mind, got me asking why.
he never had a normal life, even though he tried.
somebody tell me why my only friend had to die.
the cold look of the devil deep in my eyes.
revenge's sweet, so blood red's what i paint the town.
yellow tape and white sheets is all thts left now.
cemetary gates only open one way,
im standing face to face with death almost every day.
i still remember when i first seen a man die, tht was the first time i ever seen a man cry.
gangbanging on the block was the next step,
im on a mission for big money, power, respect.
and on the way if i have to take anothers life,
may god forgive my soul, help me make it through the night.
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my life story is a book called survival.
im steady praying got my hands up on the bible.
a lost soul,
where will i go when my time comes.
i feel it coming,
now you running if my times up.
too many tears over the years,
too many dead peers.
but ima soldier,
in my veins there pumps no fear.
only in the valley of the shadow of death,
they'll snatch your wind from your chest,
in peace may you rest.
now i think im going blind cuz i cant see.
im letting all my pain and anger start to blind me.
i cant take it, wanna make it, but theres no way out.
tryna figure out exactly what its all bout.
i had a woman but she left me cuz she thinks im crazy.
im in a hole, all alone
& no one can save me.
i seen her walking with the neighborhood drug dealer,
hes gonna hook her on tht shit even if it kills her.
i wonder if she even knows how much i care bout her, she probably thinks its gonna be easy to forget bout her.
i told her she was precious like a diamond in the rough,
but she was hooked on tht dope & couldnt get enough.
i had to put it to a stop, it took one pop.
my 9 mili blew his top off, the boy dropped.
murder one, im in the pin, thts the fucken end.
25 to life & shes doing drugs again.
my life story is a book called survival.
im steady praying got my hands up on the bible.
a lost soul,
where will i go when my time comes.
i feel it coming,
now you running if my times up.
too many tears over the years,
too many dead peers.
but ima soldier,
in my veins there pumps no fear.
only in the valley of the shadow of death,
they'll snatch your wind from your chest,
in peace may you rest.
my life story is a book called survival.
im steady praying got my hands up on the bible.
a lost soul,
where will i go when my time comes.
i feel it coming,
now you running if my times up.
too many tears over the years,
too many dead peers.
but ima soldier,
in my veins there pumps no fear.
only in the valley of the shadow of death,
they'll snatch your wind from your chest,
in peace may you rest.