VNV Nation - Rubicon lyrics

Praying for myself.
These thoughts I try to hide.
I have faith in me and hope this will survive.
But it's tearing me apart.
I can't hear the words by which I guide.
So I must ask again, who will carry me.

I can not deny that nothing can defend
From the helplesness that's cutting deep inside,
And I can't prevent the thought that nothing's real.
Seems I've waited years for this day to end.

The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face staring back at me.
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am.
I have come so far and I cannot return.

Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end, and everything falls apart.
Before I live my life as I have always done.

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So this does not end.
I cannot return. I Can't Start again.

Nothing to deny, nothing to defend.
From the helplessness, it's cutting me so deep inside.
And I can't prevent the thought that's nothing's real.
It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end.

Praying for myself.
These thoughts I try to hide.
I have faith in me and hope this will survive.
But it's tearing me apart.
I can't hear the words by which I guide.
So I must ask again, who will carry me.

Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end, and everything falls apart.
Before I live my life as I have always done.

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So this does not end.
I cannot return. I can't start again.

Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end, and everything falls apart.
Before I live my life as I have always done.

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So this does not end.
I cannot return. I can't start again.