Rafael:
time still binds me to this house
a broken hollow shell
of a home of a place to rest my weary head
but instead it pounds and it aches and rings all through my ears
it makes me grow too sick, my body and my mind,
leave it to
a stupid kid
to find himself
in a hole
that his own
family
has dug
leave it to a stupid kid to lay on his ass
and wonder filled with dreams and no action. what is it that keeps one trapped, another's will to keep them there or one's own keeping them too scared to leave, too cowardly to walk away
I have this habit of disappointing myself, I've done it again, i haven't left
this is not my first failure or fault i've met my share of them
i can hear the voices scream 'give up, just give up kid' at the end of the halls i stand stupid scared
sleep to dream its the last thing you have to do, son the only thing
the yard stands guard
at the gate of these years that i hate whats it take to satiate the will of those binding me to my fate of a broken state of mind just once leave me be at this house for i will grow into vines to choke these walls to death
bring me justice, leave these doors be
just for one night
Justin:
i lay in bed and can't sleep
i walked around the house earlier
to see my mother's bed flipped
mattress on the floor
lamp broken against the closet doors
it makes me want to vomit
when i think of how fragile he makes this house
oh how many times he has broken it for me
i'm sick and in bed just hoping i can put it back together again
but i'm growing lazy of wanting to fix it
i want to leave this mess, i just can't think of leaving
my family behind with him, i wish they'd leave with me