I've seen blue beaches, holy crosses and shrines
And the
Hollywood sign as is lit up the night
But paradise fades with the inching of time
When the better half of me can't make up it's mind
Red wine 'till dawn as we slept through the day
I could feel the poison set as it coursed through my veins
The harder I'm pushed, the harder I fall
The actions of one, left blame with them all
Gradually walk down the charter steps
Cold and miserable here feels like I left
A piece of my aorta back in the utopia I just left a few hours ago
My mind froze like I am forgetting something
It does not matter as I am strangely at peace,
For I have made amends
I made up with my lovely, beautiful, bitchy, caring, fucking wife
Back to the norm releasing memories
Of the last two weeks of enjoyment
Being away from this shithole
Love me
Lying at home mind racing through zones of love and hate
Knock on the door interrupting my realizations of my mental desires
Sister ragging on me typical female it never stops
Never ends blah blah it's time to make some more amends
It's getting lonely in here
This empty room
I need some comfort
I've got to get out
On the town dinner and dancing the night away
We had the best time of our lives, she disappeared
What really happened?
I guess we made amends
Flashes of violence, the horrible dreams I can tell that something is not right
I go to my doctor but she can't help me, Insisting the need to come clean
I feel so fucked up, but I can't tell her
In the hospital strait jacket and all, fuck this shit
I am more normal that these freaks my mental health is just dandy
Leave me alone
Enough of the needles, enough of the blue pills,
Enough of the endless staring between us
Enough of the screams and enough of these walls
One careless moment - I'm gone
I gave my doctor her certificate of amendication
I'm free again
Maybe one day I'll find true love and contempt of my mind
So our hearts can be together as one
And I'll get one more chance
To show my love will last forever
Things are going to be normal for a while