Eligh - Attracted to Pain текст песни

It’s like I’m programmed to find the same person
Like there’s some lesson I’m supposed to learn from it all
I can’t paint a picture
I changed, I swear to God
How exactly have you changed?
The same inadequate feelings I had when I was nine in love with the acrid
I grew up with you around me Envy, jealousy, lack of confidence compiled into an extensive list of defects
I still feel like a reject, so I’ma deject your madness
Cleaning out my cabinets, taking my keys sent back to the
Why you pick-pocketing me for
Deep emotional struggle stained the canvas of my psyche
Nice guys finish last, that is the case with you and me Nice lies spinning fast, I lost the race before it started
So late to the dance, I’m thirty-one, you twenty-one
Should have known better
Should have run away when I spotted you
But I entertained my appetite for pretty lips
Let my ship sink and plotted to get over my attitude
I guess I got too much to work on to fuck with you
Take a picture of my condition and mount it in your memory
Sweetness can’t compare to aggressiveness when you’re messing with damaged
beauty
Sleeping on my instincts, need to listen
Takes a lot to feed a fish and keep it alive
I was surviving and will improve
I will fuck up when I’m in the mood
I tell myself I like the pain when I hate the pain
I stake my name in a picture frame in the hall of shame
When it’s not the case so I must refrain from you again
It’s not the pace I want to run
I want to face my emotional demons and now and then they creep in But I will not let them stay
There’s something wrong with me, I don’t know what it is
I’m attracted to what hurts the most, now that’s the shit
Give it to me baby, hurt my heart, I like the scars
I guess I haven’t learned my lesson yet
Feel me on this verse, it’s a blessing and a curse
To think from the heart first…