Esoteric - Awaiting My Death текст песни

Windows of shattered dreams
Laid out before me
My broken reflection hauntingly stares back,
As once again I pick up the pieces of my mind

Rebuilding myself again
And I know what is done
The smaller pieces lost
They used to be large,
But now they are gone

I cannot find my hope, my joy or my life,
Just empty splinters embedded in my mind
Causing me pain, I grimace in awe at the overwhelming pain
Caused by what I've lost, by what has been destroyed

My scars start to bleed
From my wounds of sorrow,
I watch the blood run
A release of my self-hate,
And still the blood flows:

Scarred all over my body
With each scar comes a memory of pain
Though it's hard to tell now, they all look the same
Awaiting the day when my blood is no more,
Maybe then the pain will be gone
I await my death with both relief and with fear,
I sense that my shattered mind knows it is near

[Music - Greg Autumn 1993]
[Lyrics - Greg 9/1993]