(Verse)
Damn I mean but where am I going? What I’m living for?
I roll the dice on life so tell me what they getting fo
I’m 3 shots in, probably depressed
But crying about my problems ain’t gon get me out this mess
Ridin round playin Scarface, I’m all gangsta
I wanna die but I’m scared of lookin in God’s face
Poppin pills and powder, tryna kill some hours
Cus when I’m sober man, I promise I can feel the power
But death can be slowly, I’m on my way
Heaven or hell, well that’s only for God to say
I lost some people but I never like to talk about it
Hard times, we go through em, we don’t walk around em
I told my Shawty don’t listen to black kidney
Be trippy, smoke on the stinky and find a Britney that’s pretty nah
I know that only God could solve my problems
There’s something deep inside me and I can’t seem to resolve it
My world’s changing, I just wanna revolve it
My best days, I’m surrounded by all these foes uh
I need a ride and a dream, money in the jeans
Ladies all free, feel fabric like static
Couldn’t handle it, it was all bad habit
Strangers on my back and everything, we are some actors
Heard that you was tryna find, you can see me off
You decide about the rings on a pretty car
(Hook)
Why?
God I know the truth but I’m feelin my lies
If lovin is just wrong I don’t wanna be right
It keeps pullin me down
So I look to the clouds
And it’s the devil, devil in disguise
(Verse)
They writin bout a million dollars like that’s supposed to make us cold
I know better, I seen Jay chase 100 mo
If you ain’t satisfied with it what’s the point in runnin?
Just sit here with a blunt and watch these rappers try to stunt
And right next to paychecks if I ain’t broke
I’m still broke inside, noose into this tight rope
Man I walk until the hellfire on my hand
But I ain’t hurt enough to ill, I don’t want a mill
If God’s real I believe he can change things
Word to wise, ain’t no other way to understand
What it’s like to be me
What it’s like to be the outcast
Take it but all together’s the cheesiest
So if you need this stand and rescue a fool
I’ll be grinding in the pool of liquor to keep cool
Smoking cool like the old heads do
Call me Nat King Cole like I’ve got this red blues
Ain’t a pest, I’ve been tryna smoke it out
But it never seems to die when I choke it out
I try to drink away but my stomach swear
That what I’m drinkin on earth I’ll probably throw up in hell, well
Jesus, they say You’ll take away my cancer
Accept of the mess of a man that I am and give me answers
They said you’d die for this selfishness that I pursue
Before I head to my room and turn my eyes to you
I’m 6 shots in and half past sober
I pray when I wake up the darkness will be over
God I’m 6 shots in and half past sober
I pray when I wake up the darkness will be over
(Hook)
Why?
God I know the truth but I’m feelin my lies
If lovin is just wrong I don’t wanna be right
It keeps pullin me down
So I look to the clouds
And it’s the devil, devil in disguise