So you joined the circus
but it never left town
but you wear your trauma
like an evening gown
it's the thirtieth year that you climbed up here to fall like a stone
heavy in your hands and i don't think you're going back home
you fold it in, like a private sin
that's been engraved under your skin
and the lava lifts you through the pain
as you open your eyes to diamond rain
and the silver coins fall from your palms
and just for a moment the blue turns to white and it's
gone
and it's enough
until you fall
on aluminum
you're done with self blood lust so you entrust it with somebody else
you're done with every balm, it's never gone, the scab is somewhere else
all you got is watches
taken from wrists that were dead
you gave it all and now you
spend yourself instead
and the lava lifts you through the pain
as you open your eyes to diamond rain
and the silver coins fall from your palms
and just for a moment the blue turns to white and it's
gone
and it's enough
until you fall
on aluminum
plums float down the brook you ride
there's a ram in the bushes from a valentine
and just so you knew they dropped you back down
with a tourniquet for a promise ring
and baby now you know
baby now you know
baby now you know
now you know what you missed
it's gone
and it's enough
until you fall
on aluminum