I believe it's time
for you to avert your eyes
i've been looking ugly
i've been feeling ugly
decency and decorum
gave way to
the soaked sheets and quiet hum
of head to hand combat
with me, myself, and i
no one wins but you
so with cut losses and clenched fists
i'm leaning in
nodding out
on the mirror,
painting solid walls
with stolen words
and pictures best viewed with eyes closed
it's all feeling ugly