"Testament"
There's nobody that gets why it hurts so much for me to keep on living
I no longer wish for anything, enduring living day after day
Everyone looking down on me with their dead eyes
This dim room and warm isolation are
My ideal friends, a place where my heart can be at peace
Father, mother, I'm sorry but it seems
I'll be washed away by the endless flood of bitterness
All I hope for now is for the clock to stop
'Cause I'm gonna close my eyes forever
Everyone, thanks for just keeping your spirits up on the outside
I hate you all for faking your sadness so easily
You're all laughing, just fucking die
If I'm the one that's "alive" then I'll be crushed today
By the emotional mess of you being the ones that are "dead"
The media just lets our suffering become gossip
A shameless parade of believers pretending to be sad
We've got our lives and our red blood
But is the only way to show it death?
Even if I'm sleeping, please don't put flowers on my school desk
I've got not use for you acting like you're sad
This world created us and
This world killed us