I never meant to speak my mind
I just can't hold back these feelings that I really want to hide
I never meant to look to you to confide
I only wanted to know what it's like to be by your side
I'm sorry for the things I've said
And even though my words were real
This guilt weighs heavy on my heart like lead
A bullet pushing through my chest
I turn from blue to red
And shut my eyes to take a picture to keep inside my head
I can't believe that we've departed
When we didn't even begin
I'll stop what will never be started
So there will never be an end
I don't know why I'm broken hearted
I guess this is just who I am
This is who I am
And if it's only a dream then how come I can feel so much
I try so hard to make this real, but my hardest is never enough
So instead I'll sleep beneath these sheets and pray I never wake up
I'll keep my eyes sewn shut
And when I pass you on the street I'll smile but never say a word
I'll keep my distance, shut you out so I will never have to hurt
But my mouth has a mind of its own so I'll fill full of dirt
So I will never be heard
I can't believe that we've departed
When we didn't even begin
I'll stop what will never be started
So there will never be an end
I don't know why I'm broken hearted
I guess this is just who I am
This is who I am
Yeah, and what if things were different
How would this turn out
Would you lie in my arms all day
Or would you be hiding yourself in doubt
I only know the harsh truth of what it's like to live without
What are these dreams about?
I can't believe that we've departed
When we didn't even begin
I'll stop what will never be started
So there will never be an end
I don't know why I'm broken hearted
I guess this is just who I am
This is who I am
So now I'm screaming, yes I'm shouting at the top of my lungs
What is this fucking roller coaster ride that I have begun
I'll only ask this once...
How could I be so dumb?
Is this who I am?