So you took a chance and risked it all
Guess I should have done the same when I could've
I took the safest route, once again
And it only led to a place I rarely tread
No silver lining, no other way about it
I'm green with envy, and ripe with hatred for my inability
To dive headfirst, the only way I thought I knew
So this is what it took (to make me realize how I feel about you)
I guess I did a pretty good job, lied through my teeth
Tried to suppress feelings not so long gone
Just conveniently dismissed, for the sake of timing
At least now I know where I stand, still alone, bitter
And frustrated with the confusion, of possibility (use your illusion)
I fed you to the lions
Dressed you in a disguise, of prepared temptation
Breathed you in deep, one last time
Then consciously sent you into their jaws
Now as I sit here and attempt to make sense of this can of worms
You've dumped in my fucking lap
My closest friend, my biggest enemy
Dwell within, the same chasm I've left vacant for my demons.