If I’m talking in past tense, I have lived a charmed existence,
now that change is in the air, another scar we will compare.
I thought at times I’d been enlightened,
to tell the truth I’d become frightened of all the things
I’ve never learned, and all the energy
I’d burned on all those stupid boys that I thought were
worth my time and I would die for,
I’d lose my head and when my heart felt I’d add to my life’s list of disappointment. He sounded good on the phone,
I’d walk at night on my own, I knew that it was worth it,
and I’d never have to do it again.
I’ve been having weird dreams again,
I just want to have the one where I win.
And all those times they’ve said this job’s for you,
some DSS guy wouldn’t have a clue about what I will achieve in my life,
it’s not some nine to five thing or a house wife,
not that any of those things are bad,
it’s just never been a dream the I’ve had.
I’ve got a dark ambition in me,
I will be independent and free, and all the stupid things I’ve done,
I’ll never have to do them again.