Darkness has fallen around me,
once again i am caught,
familiar feelings emerge from the past,
reality i can't seem to grasp.
i thought i was safe from it all,
i realize how foolish i was,
i put it away in a deep dark place,
now i clench my fist as tears pour down my face.
had i not learned??
am i not stronger than before??
i question my abilty to learn from my mistakes,
i know the wrong choice i am about to make.
my eyes staring at the ground,
i wipe away my tear stained cheeks,
i pour the contents of the bottle in my hand,
one by one i swallow til i can barely stand.
my body limply falls to the floor,
i close my eyes squeezing out my last tear,
i put it away in a deep dark place,
now i clench my fist as tears pour down my face.
had i not learned??
am i not stronger than before??
i question my abilty to learn from my mistakes,
i know the wrong choice i am about to make.
My body limply falls to the floor,
i close my eyes squeezing out my last tear,
tonight i have fallen from grace,
dead and gone, darkness is my face