There's nothing i could call this
No architecture for the order of things
When I sat there and watched you sleeping
Before the trucks arrived
I stopped your better life
I wrote you letters for a while.
Left to hunt the saddest date
In hollow walls and empty halls
For all this all was
Some doubted that you'd have been there
So I crawled and smiled
Where the stitchy held me tight
And hoped that you'd come back to find me sometime.
I hope that you forgive me
For being so severe
Your proximity was clouding my account of what was real here
Your late years all got stuck inside the wall
You always talk but never hold me in the wish that you would ask me how i'm feeling
There's so much I want to tell you
By the way, i'm disappearing
And so many years have passed
It's that
I left a house
I left a map
To mind you what you must've never found it
And it hurt that you got married
And I hope she holds you to fall asleep these days.
'Cause I knew the ways
When you were it
You're not what I imagined
You'd be gone when we were younger
But I'm still in love without words
And absence found your parents' house
And lived inside the wall
That you don't ask about me
When you call.